What Do You Dream When You Are Awake?

it is the realization of the things that have been,

in our personal silences, that we find what our life has become.

"But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms We cannot weather"

- Victor Hugo, "Les Miserables"

so, as the soft rustling of my tin fan goes on,

i sit trying to make sense of what i see. it has been quite

a time since i've tried the art of making sense of it all.

...

maybe this is not what i have dreamed,

and in some ways, i have lost battles

and in some ways, i have won battles.

and in the most minute of ways, i grew.

and in the grandest, i found my happiness.

and in some ways, i continue to dream.